I NEED HELP 😱🤮😭

For 3 years I have been in an extremely abusive relationship. I've been so afraid to leave because he is more than capable of completely ruining my family (he works in my dad's company and has threatened this before). Unfortunately we are not in the US and there are no laws protecting us of anything he might do. Besides me being afraid to leave and him being extremely abusive (I don't even want to remember what I've been through) he keeps making me feel bad about my self (I am finally able to stand up for myself) and keeps telling me how miserable he is. I will talk to my family before getting the fuck away from him, to give them a warning of how capable he is and for them to be cautious.

Long story short, he is my fiance now. I don't even want to talk about it. It makes me sick. I am so grateful that I have my family and I know they will always have my back. I didn't know he was a MONSTER. 😭😭😭

Long story short he has physically asaulted me (punching, slapping, throwing me across the room, kicking me while lying down) in the past and then made me beg for him sexually. I wanted to kill myself. I had to go through with that because I was so afraid of him. I haven't told anyone about this.

He at least always spoke good about me in front of others. Until I found his unlocked phone and read his chat with his best friend. The things I read disguisted me I. AM. IN. SHOCK. He bragged to his best friend how I beg him for sex after he physically asaults me, how I deserve nothing more, how little he thinks of me and how he has to watch porn before seing me because I disguist him.

It never even crossed my mind that he is with me for my money. My family isn't rich, but we have a very stable financial life (properties, land, medium company, inheritance etc). He kept telling me how much he hated me and how he had no reason to be with me, but whenever I tried to leave him he threatened to ruin my life.

Now I have phone messages that I can show the police and get a restraining order. He makes me sick. I don't know how I will get over this, but I will.

Wish me luck 😭❤