To my abusive parents...

0- my mom contemplated why she got pregnant with me in the first place, having her husband say he wanted a child and regretting her pregnancy

1- my father is never around and would rather get laid by a hooker then spend time with my mom or I.

2- everyone in my family has learned to put on a show for others, displaying the perfect family. Even though my father tried to commit suicide and my mother has been hating the fact I was born a girl.

3- I become aware of the hate my parents feel for me

4- I look up to my parents, even though I am sent away to a school that will further harm me in the future

5- I get beaten by my peers and told I have ADHD by a teacher without a medical degree

6- I become depressed and skinny, bones stick out as my parents start abusing me more and more; asking what the hell is wrong with me, hurting me because they didn’t know I had an anxiety disorder

7- I get diagnosed and start going to therapy, the therapist thinks I should be taken away from my parents

8- continuing therapy and out of the old school, finally in public schooling with kind teachers

9- I start getting mentally abused by my mother for wanting to play outside

10- I try to escape my parents by going online to escape reality for a bit, my parents see this as another reason to hit me

11- I am now starting to trust others even though it was wrong for me to, my therapist tells my parents and my parents tell me to stay quiet, lie to doctors, and lie to the therapist.

12- I start to become more independent and walk home from school with a group of friends, my mother calls the police.

13- I realize that I am sinking into depression and desperately need help, but I do not make a sound for my parents would hurt me even more

14-I become numb to people, I am starting to believe I am unloveable, untouchable.

15- I finally fall in love with a friend who only sees me as a friend, my parents find out. My mother attempts to brain wash me, prostitute me, have me raped, kick me out of the house. My father sits back and watches, because no daughter of theres should fall in love with a trans man.

16- I am mentally damaged, I told my therapist everything, and not to tell my parents due to the fear I have towards them. They have begun to adopt this family into their lives that is LGBTQ friendly, and they lie. They lie with smiles on their faces to impress this family about how good they are to the community. I am in pain beyond anything and I am fighting everyday to break out of their control. They talk about how they want to talk with me in the future, they’ll be lucky to get a post card.