It’s hard being a teen😤

Honestly I wish I was a adult and I know that’s some adults say that your gonna wish you was a kid again but if I was a adult I won’t have to worry about my parents blaming me for stuff I didn’t do or having to deal with my dads drinking problem or having to to deal with my parents attitudes . It gets worse when my dad is home from work because he is always drunk and like

to fight on his family for no reason . This is putting a lot of stress on me to where I get chest pains , panic attacks, depression and anxiety. I just want my parents to understand what they put me through I want them to understand the reason why I stay in my room everyday or go to my friends house to get away from them. I want them to understand why I cry myself to sleep . I want them to understand that my life completely changes when I got rapped . I just want to feel loved . I feel like I’m hated by them or if I die maybe things will be ok 😔