I want out!

I’ve been with my husband 16.5 yrs married 7.5 yrs and the last 5 years have been the worst he’s drinking A LOT more and thinks he needs to get drunk almost every night and when he gets really mad he goes all hulk on me yelling throwing stuff putting holes in stuff and tells me how shitty of a wife I am cuz I don’t have the house spotless every day cuz I guess since I’m a stay at home mom I don’t do anything to him cuz you know he don’t have clean clothes, dinner on the table when he gets home from work or dishes to eat off of......I just don’t think I can do this anymore I’m only 30 yrs old but there’s no where for me to go, I have no money nothings in my name not even the car I drive.......no one would understand cuz when we are around other people he acts like nothing is ever wrong but the moment we are alone he’s a dick.