Birthday blues

So today, the 4th, I turned 25. Yesterday I spent all day at the lake with my husband, mom, step dad and grandparents. The 4th is also their 50th wedding anniversary so we were all celebrating a day early. Had a really good time but long day and got really burnt. So today, my actual birthday, I didn't have any plans. My husband and I ended up sleeping in and going to the drive in which was nice.

I didn't get gifts or a cake this year, I didn't want any. I think my husband is more upset about it than I am and ia worried I didn't have a good enough birthday. I always tell him im not materialistic and I'd rather have people I love just spend time with me.

Anyway, earlier this year I thought I had made some friends. I even made a gift basket for one's birthday last month. We also all work together but were hanging out outside of work also. Today, not a single one texted or called. I dont normally get upset about these things but I have anxiety, struggle to make friends, and idk I just thought we were close. They knew my birthday because one is a few days after mine and I always make jokes that no one can forget mine because it's a holiday. I usually feel so forgotten and left behind when it comes to trying to fit in and have friends and I guess this feels the same.

I just needed a place to vent..