My angels👼💔

I gave birth to my 2 beautiful babies July 3rd, both boys and both only 20 weeks gestation. My water broke and caused an infection. They stopped giving me choices and decided to take both my babies. The morning of friday the 3rd I went into labor, I gave birth at 3:12am to the first baby and 3:14 for the second. There was no time in between for they were such little babies. My first guy born (liam) was pronounced dead at birth, he was still so perfect. His arm was swollen and red because he had it hanging out of my cervix for over 48hours (this did not help the infection). He was the big brother though. His little brother (leo) was born 2 minutes later, still in his sack and his heartbeat for 3 hours while I held them. They did not try to save baby for they told me it was pointless. I didnt let them go until I had to walk out of the hospital. That was the worst thing I have ever done. But they were already in God's hands and cold to the touch, I needed to let go. Describing the feeling of walking out of that hospital room with my babies laying inside all alone is so hard to explain. I will forever love my angel babies and I know they will forever be by my side, but honestly i miss them so much and my heart is torn in two.

Liam Jaxon in blue and Leo Jakob in brown