What else can I do?

Hi everyone,

I’m in year 12 this year, and I have been working online from home due to Covid. I’m finding things really difficult. My doctor diagnosed me with depression, and high stress. I’m now taking medication but I just feel numb. I don’t know how to cope. I want to do well with my end of year exams, however at the same time I’m beginning to see no future for myself. I just feel really isolated, I’m on school holidays but I can’t see my friends, and it’s been like this for more than 3 months. I haven’t been provided a date for when we return to school. I’m so stressed. Every night I have nightmares of things from my past. I’ve spoken to my Mum about some of it but she’s already busy with my brother and her business. My brother has schizophrenia, Tourette’s and autism so sometimes when I’m finding things difficult I just feel like an extra problem she can’t handle. It’s not her fault. I know she has a lot on her plate but I don’t know what to do anymore. I have believed for years that things would get easier, eventually and it doesn’t. Each year things just get harder and harder. I’m sorry to be so negative. I just really needed to rant. Also I have told my school about my mental health but there isn’t much they can do.