I ache for our rainbow to come 🌈

April 1st I had a miscarriage at 5 weeks, early I know but, not any less painful. We didn’t get to keep our first baby or hear the heartbeat of what we were sure would have been a little boy. We are one cycle away from it being a year of trying. I’m 7 DPO today and so hopeful but, also so scared of getting those negatives and my period again. I don’t want to get my hopes up anymore. I’ve been so chill this cycle mainly because I just know it won’t happen. I’m seeing a new doctor that specializes in fertility issues as soon as they can get me an appointment. I hurt so much it’s indescribable. I know other women feel the same. All in God’s timing.. I know we will get through this but I really just needed to vent to people that don’t know me....