Hi All. I need help.

Lately I have been feeling so out of touch, so uninterested, and so numb to a lot of things. One major thought in my mind lately is that, maybe things will be good if I’m not here. I feel sad, but at the same time no tears want to come out. I feel angry at the world. Angry at myself. I’m not sure what is a contributing factor to me feeling this way. I’ve been trying to piece it together. Not sure if it’s the pandemic, and being isolated, or if it’s work, or just life itself and maybe it’s me not being happy. Normally, I’m ok. I usually have anxiety, but now I just feel like I don’t give a fuck about anything, including myself. I take rx prozac 20 mg everyday. I feel like lately it’s not helping at all. Wondering if i should consult my doc about upping my dose, but I’m scared. I think I really just needed to vent it out. I’m too afraid to talk to anyone close to me about my issues. I don’t want to be a burden and I also want to be really heard. I don’t think I would get that out of anyone around me, so I choose to keep it to myself. I’m gonna look into therapy again. I used to go before, then I stopped. Anyway. Send me good vibes? Please. I really need it. I never felt so low about myself before.

Thank you in advance.