Worst luck with men
I met this guy through mutual friends and he seemed very upset one day and so I reach out to him and from there on we talked everyday for two months , I was going through my problems at the time as well so it worked out we both had someone we can talk to and confide in he had just lost his ex of 3 years and she moved onto a different guy but when they were together she was always hitting him and being toxic so I’d hear him out and of course we talked about our day and other random things too..he was a very good friend. Things got complicated when he told me he liked me because to be honest I didn’t see him like that and I was still crying and broken over this one guy. I did be honest and tell him like it’s not gonna work out we’re both damaged right now and you only like me cause I’m there for you allow yourself to heal and than think bout how you feel for me. That didn’t complicate our friendship at all because he was stil my friend and we still were there for each other all the time..anyways time goes by and he tells me again he likes me and he thinks about me a lot and he’s comfortable with me and he wants me and i again pushed him away because I had a lot going on I didn’t want to bring my problems into his life and feelings for me we would mess up everything. Well I found myself thinking of him a lot and developing feelings for him I was afraid to tell him because usually when you tell a guy you like him back his feelings go out the window. Few days go by and I tell him ok I do like you let’s try this but take it slow so we end up being more flirty in our conversations (nothing sexual at all) just (baby, I can’t stop thinking of you,i want you ect.) than we meet up at a party and he is literally sitting next to me the entire time and ended up kissing me end of the night..it was the most gentle kiss ever like he was so passionate about it. Anyways a week goes by we text and talk everyday but little by little I notice he isn’t the same guy I was talking to before like he isn’t so involved I guess you could say he seems more distant so I’m like ok maybe we need to hang out again so i make plans to hang out and the entire time he’s talking to his friends , we play Mario Kart , and he is acting no where near how he said he would act if we were together like he would grab my hand once in a while but that’s it I felt so unliked it was crazy and his roommates were talking to me and they even felt like I was a sweet girl and liked me. He always told me he didn’t wanna bring me over cause he didn’t want me to see what he lived in and I was like I don’t care if I’m there for you i don’t care at all..his house was messy and smelled like dog urine a lot and had clothes everywhere and a bunch of junk and the carpet was really dirty but i didn’t care I wanted to be with him I’m not one to judge on how he lives. Especially because he said that right now things are hard for him and he has to stay there..I just noticed he seemed annoyed with me after a while so I was like maybe it’s time to go so on the way to take me home he heels my hand and would play with my fingers that’s really it and now he’s acting really distant like he doesn’t wanna text me he said he isn’t looking for nothing serious and he has a lot of shit he has to deal with in his head first and he does care about me...call me crazy but I have a fake account I used to flirt with him to see if he flirted back and he did he is trying to rewrite this fake account I made and invite this fake account to the beach and i ask him are you a player and he said “Yeah a little my roster is getting big” I’m completely shook because to me he claimed to be that guy that gets hurt and females do him wrong and whole time this dude is a man whore..🥺 he is nothing what he claim to be in our entire friendship i mean we talked every day all day and he seemed nothing close to how he is being now. Is he just scared of getting hurt cause his ex? Why is he pushing me away?
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