Not in my Plans.

I’ve always been told I was an emotional person.

But when I say I don’t know how to feel or how to exactly feel okay about what I feel.

I am 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant and it’s not my boyfriends.

Now I know I may have worked it up to sound worse.. but this baby was conceived just 2 days before my break up. It was an attempt of reconnection with an ex but it did not work out.

I took no time moving on because I felt like I KNEW I deserved better.

I found this guy and as I lay next to him.. I know that he’s the one I’ve been praying for.

But.... how do I tell him?

I can’t help to think down on this pregnancy and I’m already blaming it for the ruin that hasn’t happened yet.

What if everything will be okay?

But what if it isn’t?