i feel so numb and honestly i don’t wanna life anymore. but i’m staying for my family. i fell in love with a 17 year old fuck boy a year ago and i haven’t stopped thinking about him a day since, we’ve been on and off all year. i let him take my virginity when we was getting serious then shit happened again and i found out he had sex with 3 other girls while we was talking. i feel so numb and hurt all i do is sit in my room and try to keep going. it’s gotten bad and honestly i’m lost