I’m a bengali young female who wants to run away from her family so bad. They want to control every aspect in my life and I just can’t give them what they want. I don’t want to marry an asian. I don’t want to stay home all day. I don’t want to have to wear modest clothing everywhere just so they’re not embarrassed of what other bengali people will say. I want to find my own love. I want to enjoy my young age with my friends and drink and party and get to wear whatever I want. I feel trapped and I really think dying is the best option. I love my boyfriend but he is black - it will never happen. He doesn’t understand that I can’t leave my family for him and honestly- dying is the best option right now. How do I get away from they how do I make them understand I can’t be like them. This is 2020, not 1979. I want my own life without having to olease them