huge issue with my partner’s porn addiction

Hi,

I was wondering if anybody else is struggling with their partner’s porn addiction and how they are coping with it and moving forward. I had a traumatic experience when I was a child with my abuser who would make me watch porn with him and would talk down to me in the process. Now, I absolutely cannot stand it. Porn is something that heavily contributes to my anxiety, insecurities and makes me think irrationally and internally. My boyfriend is addicted to porn and since the beginning it’s one of our biggest issues, we’re 3 years in now. He understands my past with it and how I feel about it now. He has made a big improvement in his habit but he still falls to it. I still get very emotional and insecure when it happens and I know “it has nothing to do with me” but I can’t help but internalizing it and feeling as if I’m not good enough in comparison to these other women. I understand porn is normalized but it doesn’t take away my reality with it and I don’t have to force myself to pretend it’s not an issue. I want to know if there is anyone else struggling with it and how they are coping with it. I don’t want to make my man feel worse about his habit and thats what has been happening since I don’t know how to control my anxiety with it. I don’t want to feel crazy anymore.