I'm in so deep


Hi everyone, this is probably going to be long.

Me (24f) and my boyfriend (25) have been dating for almost 5 years. He is my absolute best friend but he has made mistakes in the past and im just now realizing he has anger issues. We just had a baby together in May and we know we are going to get married within the next year or so (when it feels right We're not rushing it just because we have a baby).

Anyways, last year he was on a work trip and I found out he was video chatting girls and getting off with them on Chat Roulette and Omegle... i accidentally found it on his laptop (I went to Google and those icons of his last web pages popped up, I wasn't intentionally looking bc i trusted him). So that really made me take a few steps back and he had to earn my trust back.. other than that incident, everything is great except for his anger issues... he punches walls, slams doors and cabinets, he has threatened to kill himself.. and today he screamed at me while I was feeding our newborn. I told him to get out of the room and calm down. When he left I heard more banging and punching, I was scared..

I told him he needs to find a professional to talk to because I don't always have the right things to say but that only makes him angrier.

He also expects me to "fix" him.. ive told him that I cant do that. He needs to figure that out especially now that we are parents, we have to be the very best we can be for our baby.

Has anyone else gone through this? Did the relationship last? Did your partner get help? I don't know what else to do. We both have deadbeat dads and our parents are divorced, I don't want that for my baby :( I want her to have what I didnt have growing up; two parents in love.

Thank you for reading