Insecure about partners Bodycount

Hey Girls!

So I basically just need y’all to talk some sense into me/give me advice or personal experiences.

So my partner and I have been together a year now, it started as long distance but I have recently broken the distance and moved in with him.

We go great together, he supports me through absolutely everything, despite my ongoing struggle with BPD.

My nagging insecurity is who he was before me. He never dated anybody before me and had never been in love, he had hookups and that’s it. Before me he’d slept with around 20 girls.

When we first met we were instantly drawn to each other but I had a different partner at the time, fast forward two years later he messaged me and we hit it off. Were just best friends though as I have a new partner. I fall for him quickly and he does the same, despite a 9 hour trip to see each other and 3 years of waiting, we start dating.

Update to now, I’m the first girl he’s ever loved and will openly tell me he wants me to be the one and only, that he wants to spend our lives together and in a few years start trying for a baby. And with a logical mind, I can see this man is completely in love with me but my BPD acts up and makes me worry he will be unfaithful In a relationship due to never being In one.

I want happy life with this man, I’ve never seen a future with anybody like this. Let alone had somebody talk about our future the way he does