This feeling comes in waves. Some months I get a little disappointed when AF comes, and then I quickly move forward. This month is not one of them. AF isn’t here yet, but all the signs are here (cramping, tired, irritability). AF is due this weekend.

I keep feeling the need to cry, and do when able. I am just hating this right now. We’ve been TTC for Baby #2 since October 2019. Baby #1 was conceived after 4 months, but I was also 30.

Just needed to vent. I don’t want to hear anything from friends and family. My friends are all done having babies and insist I should be happy with my one. Of course I’m happy. I LOvE that sweet boy with every ounce of me. I am praying so hard for another. My son is begging for a sibling.

My heart is aching today.