Anyone else suffering?

I've had it since I was 5 weeks pregnant, currently am 17w5d and it's showing no signs of stopping. I haven't been able to eat a normal meal since I was 5 weeks pregnant. I've lost 18 pounds since finding out I was pregnant.

I am extremely sensitive to smells, I have no appetite, everything I eat I heavily consider how it'll come back up and if it's rough I won't eat it. I struggle to keep liquid down and don't want to go to the hospital for IV fluids because of Covid-19. What I can eat literally depends on the day.

I have medication that prevents me from vomiting but it doesn't take away the nausea or food adversions. Even smelling something my body decides it doesn't like that day sets me off. I spend most days in bed trying not to cry because crying makes me vomit, too

Even showers have become difficult, no matter the water temperature I always feel light headed and like I'm going to pass out, I have had to end my showers with soap all over me to sit on my bathroom floor and vomit.

My blood pressure has been normal at all my check ups but I have an at home cuff that sometimes gives me low reads and that makes me nervous.

It would just be nice to have a momma to be friend who understands HG and what I'm going through. It's becoming very isolating and sad for me and I'm starting to worry about my 20 week anatomy scan, dreading that there will be something wrong with my baby because I am broken.