Im just feeling really down right now. I live in Ohio and I’m 27wk1d.

My MIL and best friend decided they were going to throw me a shower next month. No one is coming. 😔 Everyone rsvp’d no. I don’t care about gifts but I was looking forward seeing people. I’ve been been home since March and it’s been lonely.

This is our first child after 3 years being diagnosed with unexplained infertility. After countless tests, medications and appts we conceived our baby girl. My husband was allowed at one appointment and has been banned from all the rest. My brother passed away unexpectedly and tragically in June. It’s been so hard going through this. I wanted to cry when my husband told me today that the shower is being canceled. I didn’t because I’ll feel materialistic after.

It just stinks. Nothing about this has been how I dreamed it being. Thank goodness baby girl is healthy and I know that’s all that should matter.