So me and my boyfriend has been off and on since I was 14 and this past year has been hard on me and we wasnt together and I was having a lot of mental problems and then we got back together but his family kicked him out and he got into a dark place that night and tried to commit and since that night it's like our puppy love is gone and I'm not sure what to do cuz I've planned my whole life around our relationship and I cant lose him hes what keeping me together I just feel like I've been a bad girlfriend cuz I feel like I make everything about me but he'll never tell me I just don't know what to do