Bjs an issue in our relationship..

I’m going to try to make a long story short.

My boyfriend and I have been together about a year and a half. In the beginning we had some issues with blow jobs. He very much enjoys them and wants me to swallow. (He’s also very particular about the way it’s done. Prefers to be sitting in a chair, doesn’t want me to use my hands) That was never my thing in past relationships, never enjoyed doing it. But I think sometimes you have to compromise in relationships- so I went for it. Turns out, I actually enjoy doing it. I was happy we were making progress and was sure it wouldn’t be an issue in our relationship anymore. Sounds silly I know- but we would actually argue about it. He would make comments that made me feel like shit about it.

I put in the effort to give him at least two (occasionally more, occasionally less) blow jobs during our weekends together. We don’t live together, he has his son during the week, we are busy doing things with friends, sometimes we are both tired. Sometimes there isn’t always the opportunity for a blow job- life happens.

But now we have resorted back to snide comments about the lack of blow jobs. It hurts my feelings but it’s also very frustrating. I feel like I have put a lot of effort into this particular situation to satisfy him. There are things I have asked for, sexually, that we have never done.

Just feeling really defeated and now sure how to handle it.