i am posting this with my actual name because I realize im a bad person and i dont need to hide it. i want kids but the only thing holding me back is ruining my body, my mental health, my relationship with my bf, and my goals and dreams for traveling. is this so selfish of me and why do i feel this way. i respect women that have children they are warriors and beautiful but i know my mental health is not strong enough to do it all. ugh. i hate myself what do i do