My baby doesn’t love me

This is going to be long, I’m sorry. Please bare with me.

My son is a little over a year old, and it has been this way since he was probably 7 months old, when they say separation anxiety kicks in.

He picks everyone else over me. When dad walks through the door, his whole face lights up and he cries until he picks him up and clings to him. Even if he has been home all day, if he’s holding him and he tries to give him to me, my son will turn around and cling to my husband because he doesn’t want me. He does the same thing when he is over at my mom or mother in laws house. When I go to take him home, he will cling to grandma and cry when I try to take him. It’s so embarrassing, everyone makes comments about it.

I don’t know what to do.. I have always been the one to take care of him, feed him at night, cuddle him when he’s sick, etc. Of course I’m so happy that he has such attachments to other people, but it hurts so much that he doesn’t love me the same way that I love him. If I got up and left forever, he honestly wouldn’t think anything if it.

Everyone says that it’s because I’m around more and he doesn’t see other people as much, but I honestly know that isn’t true. I had to work more hours one week, so I saw him in the morning for a couple of hours, but that was it. For 5 days, I saw him the same amount of time that my husband saw him. He still couldn’t care less if I was there or not... I’m so worried that he isn’t attached to me, and I feel guilty for being so hurt by it, because I know that I’m his mom and he still needs me. But I can’t help but think that I should just leave them alone and let everyone be happy without me.

Please don’t judge me... I really don’t want any hurtful comments.