Miscarriage at 7.5 Months

I was told I should maybe start a topic share on this to help with my process in healing so please bare with me.

A year ago today I was 4 months pregnant I was healthy but my stress levels and hormones were out of this roof. I had terrible morning sickness and terrible pains, I’ve already been told prior to trying it would be hard for me to have a baby. But my husband and I just had some luck we had prior to this pregnancy miscarried at 12weeks and at this point in my pregnancy I kept it mostly a secret from everyone because I was scared I was going to jinx our new baby and didn’t end up telling people until July/August because I started to show I was an average 175 at 5’8/5’9 and I had put on 10-15lbs. But a lot of events happened in the month of August where it got hard for me my husband wasn’t around much and wasn’t really involved in the pregnancy. But after his birthday (5 days later) in November an incident had happen where someone had broken into our apartment at the time and threw me around and chocked me and several other things ( I was not raped thank god.) But from the trauma I started bleeding heavily n I was in a lot of pain and I was struggling. I couldn’t get a ambulance at the time, and my husband wasn’t around. Where I had to make it to our vehicle and drive to the hospital when I did reach there was so much blood I fainted in the waiting room. I was transferred into another building from what I knew (still foggy) but I was put under from the trauma and pain and I was induced my little boy was born I never saw him never held him I didn’t know what was happening I had no one with me, I stayed in the hospital that night till the morning and was sent home like nothing happened a couple pain pills and that’s it. I stayed with my in-laws for a couple nights and I never can thank them enough. But during all this I never had time to really cope because my husband was admitted into the hospital 2 weeks later for pneumonia and liver and renial failure bc of how bad the pneumonia was and so many other things where I ended up staying in the hospital day and night because I couldn’t loose my husband too. I’m sorry guys if this is too much but I can’t even type anymore it’s just really hard