So! Turns out, I probably have PCOS :( I have so many cysts that won’t go away. They grow, rupture, I bleed and have crazy intense pain forever & then they come back and repeat. I’ve never had a normal cycle. I have a personality disorder along with other mental illnesses. I have to shave my mustache, pluck my Billygoat hairs, pluck my unibrow, etc. Basically I have all of the symptoms, plus, diabetes runs in my family... I just started trying to get pregnant this month and I’m really scared. My OB/GYN appointment is next Friday and I’m getting an ultrasound done, as well as seeing my doctor. This will make it harder for me to conceive as I will have to take medicine to trigger ovulation. I have so many physical and mental issues and it feels like it’s never going to end. I’m only 20! I don’t know how to feel! It’s just disappointment after disappointment and I don’t have enough money to take care of myself now, let alone, forever like this. :(