Heartbroken

Just looking for some reassurance that I’m not crazy and what I’m feeling is totally normal. Last year I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks, I was totally broken but then I got my rainbow positive 3 months later.

I have a happy 8 month old baby boy, but today would have been the 1st birthday of the baby I miscarried. I am a total mess today and still feel completely broken, my partner seems to have just moved past everything but I still feel like a piece of me is missing and I know if I hadn’t have lost that baby I wouldn’t have my little boy who I adore.

I just feel like I’m crazy for still mourning.