Breastfeeding on anti depressants

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I'm a FTM, and haven't had my baby yet, but I know I'm going to have to go on antidepressants as soon as I can. I was on them before I got pregnant and have been feeling terrible the last 9 months. I feel so disconnected from my baby, I've had such a hard time being happy and excited about this pregnancy. I've been absolutely miserable. I'm due in a week and half and still can't seem to muster up 100% excitement. I am happy and excited, just not totally sure if this is what I want. I'm a single mom, so I know it'll be hard. But I want to breastfeed my baby. If I have to pick one over the other, then I will have to pick anti depressants. I cannot care for a baby if I struggle immensely to care for myself. PPD is common in my family as well as depression/anxiety. Is anyone out there breastfeeding while on anti depressants or is it a no go? I haven't talked to my doctor about it yet, but I plan to Tuesday. I just don't know how I'm going to handle this. I can't stop stressing about everything. :( The baby's father and his family are terrible to me, they make things feel 100X worse. I feel like I'm going to fail at being a mom.