Husband on drugs

Little backstory: I use to be 1000% against the use of marijuana. Well my husband had done it a few times before we met but I was raised kinda religious and it was considered a “bad thing”. Well I finally tried it in 2018 and didn’t mind it so we became “green friendly”. That’s the extent of drugs that I’m comfortable with. For myself and my husband.

We are currently 30 weeks pregnant and he has decided to be vocal about his curiosity of taking acid. I made it very clear to him that I’m not on board with it and I don’t want him to do it. He said he wanted to get rid of his curiosity before baby gets here so he wanted to do it. I kept to my word that I’m not comfortable with it. Weed was the extent and I even have my limits with that. Well he and I always consult each other before making big decisions and he’s also kind of a jokester. He told me he was gonna but the tab of acid. I thought he was kidding because usually when I tell him I’m not comfortable with something he doesn’t do it and vise versa. Well he actually bought it and told me he was going to do it over the weekend with some friends.

I don’t mind him hanging out with friends. It’s healthy. But a few weeks ago he slept over at a friends house and I picked him up the next day. I don’t sleep well anyways and I didn’t sleep the whole night without him. He promised he wouldn’t leave me over night ever again especially since we are in the last trimester and i have a hard time getting around cause my body is in pain.

Well. Saturday he goes to his friends house to have the “trip” I told him I wasn’t comfortable with and he was gone the ENTIRE night.

He left me home and I didn’t know he would be gone all night. He couldn’t answer his phone because of the trip. Finally 5 am rolls around and he tells me he needs to be picked up and he’s ready to come home. I didn’t sleep the whole night because he was gone. And then I am asked to go out at 5am, pregnant to pick him up.

I hardly see him because of his work schedule so all we get are Sundays together. The whole day he slept. I didn’t see him at all because he was sleeping.

Am I wrong to be hurt and upset?? I feel like he chose his curiosity and drugs over his pregnant wife.

He asked me to not work anymore at 20 weeks because of the virus and he wasn’t comfortable with me being exposed to it like that so I quit my job. I quit what I enjoyed doing because he wasn’t comfortable and because it’s not just about me anymore. Yet he can go and cure his curiosity of drugs I clearly expressed I wasn’t comfortable with.

If I’m wrong for being upset please tell me. Maybe it’s just my hormones but I feel picked over.