This is our last month trying to conceive, and I'm a day late on my period with a BNF.

On this month in 2017 we decided to get off my birth control. In December 2017 we had a chemical pregnancy (which he never found out about). I had gotten a faint but solid line three days before Christmas, and was waiting two days before testing again for the line to be darker. I was going to take a new test on Christmas morning, however, on Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> I experienced extreme cramps and that was that. He never knew.

Three failed months on Clomid.

In February 2019 we had another chemical pregancy, confirmed with blood tests.

We struggled to get another booking for another clinic for months and months, eventually got one in March. Although the doctor did pick up problems, he said that there shouldn't be any reason why we've not been able to conceive yet. We were supposed to track a cycle, but then COVID hit. I wanted to go back once they reopened, but my company got liquidated.

So I'm considering all the difficulties and poor results we're having, I'm going to take them all a signs that we're not supposed to have children.

So now my period must just come so I can close this chapter of my life.