This week has been really weird for me.

At the beginning of the week I was ending my after period effects and wasn’t feeling back to normal self just yet so maybe this has(had) to do with it?

I found a Tik Tok about something that is actually what I am and had no idea it was even a thing and thought I was just weird and had more figuring out to do but I don’t and am so relieved about it.

Since I found out I’m not just super confused and weird, I’m so much more open to what I was feeling and am looking more into something I never thought I’d ever look into(nothing bad tho!)

Saw a post about having to let go of your past selfs that you feel you didn’t get to live through because of whatever situation didn’t allow you to live through them fully and acknowledge that you can’t go back in time in order to help heal.

So I acknowledged the my past selfs that I didn’t get to live through and I acknowledged everything I went through during those times and just accepting that’s who I was at that point of time and nothing could have changed that(I cried thinking about everything but know there’s still much more self reflecting and healing to be done).

I think because of letting go a bit and slightly mourning my past selfs, I feel so much lighter and less depressed and am looking even more forward to life and feel more determined about things. I also just feel happier in general even though I still feel like crap(and also heard about something that made me feel a lot of emotions but happiness ended up coming back and that hasn’t happened in a lone while).

I noticed I’m starting accept change in more positive light and am not worrying AS much(but am still worrying).

I noticed that I’ve started to become more comfortable in my own skin(but still am having trouble).

And lastly, I realized that I about 98% sure about my sexuality and am so happy because it’s been 5 long years for me and to finally have it figured out, fills me with so much joy!!!

Pretty random confession but it’s been a weird week for me because I can’t believe I’ve gone through and noticed all of these things since Monday.