So I’ve been planning my wedding for a year now and it the day that I’ve always dreamed of. However, not everything has been pleasant, and I’ve been disappointed over and over with this progress.

I’ve never had a healthy/friendly relationship with my mom but I included her in the planning because, well, I just wanted to have that moment. The day I went to purshase my wedding dress she said in front my friends and bridesmates (I don’t have female friends 🤷🏻‍♀️) that I only brought her so she could give me money. False. My fiancé and I are paying for our entire wedding. I just wanted to have her there because maybe I’ve seen too much Say Yes to the Dress and I expected her to be excited and cry with me. But no, that woman doesn’t show any emotion if it doesn’t involve my brother. My man of honor cried and the rest of them were so exited and my mom was like: OK.

My family has also been giving me a pain in the ass because I can’t invite them all. Again, my fiancé and I are paying and the more people we have the more expensive it gets. We now have around 80 people invited and to be honest, no, my cousin that I have not spoken to for like 5 years is not invited. No, your on and off boyfriend is not invited. No, your kids are not on the list because I don’t want kids there (keep in mind my cousins have like three kids each).

A lot of them are flying to the wedding and they’re asking why I didn’t choose a better date to travel (my wedding is in December). They flights are going to be expensive, but hey, it’s not my fault that you moved away. If you can’t come then I understand. Also, we set the date a year ago so you could plan this this trip. One even had the audacity to ask me to change the date.

Also, my parents have not contributed to anything for my wedding, money wise. This is some sort of cultural aspect here. But I understand that: “it’s my wedding, I’ll pay for it”. And I have no problem with that. However, if no one helps then no one’s opinion matters. My family is not putting any money on this but they’re criticizing everything I do: why that cake? Why that dress has a cleavage? Why are you not inviting your cousins? Why this color? You can’t have drinks there (my parents are very conservative Christians and they don’t consume alcohol) you shouldn’t do this, you shouldn’t do that, etc.

And to make things worse there’s this pandemic and I don’t even know what’s gonna happen in a few months. We canceled our honeymoon trip already and we were very excited about it.

PS: wedding planners are kind of expensive here, and the venue that I rented had almost everything included (chairs, tables, food, lighting, music, etc) so I only need to bring a few decorations and I figured I could do that on my own.