Am I being paranoid?!?

About a year ago, I met a lovely man and we became friends with benefits; good sex and good conversation with no strings attached, however over the past few months I’ve grown feelings for him which has made me stop having sex with other people. I told him how I feel about him and he told me he doesn’t want to be in a relationship right now and likes the status of our relations. I cut him off for the whole month of July, hoping my feelings for him would go away… but they didn’t, so I unblocked him, messaged him and picked up right where we left off, back to the good sex, good conversation and good vibes.

He had booked a hotel in a city 20 mins from my house because he was out drinking with his friends and didn’t want to drive home drunk, so I took this opportunity to see him (mind you, the plans to meet up were last minute and were made at 2am). After his outing I went to his hotel room and the first thing I noticed was a condom on the nightstand. I went to the washroom, came back and it was gone and so I think he noticed that I had seen it. I was quite bothered by this because we had arrived to the hotel at the same time and the plans of us meeting up were last minute, which made me question why the condom was there in the first place. I didn’t say anything to him because we’re friends with benefits and he has the right to have sex with other people, but I am bothered because I feel like I have a right to know if he is sexually active with other people for my own sexual health and personal knowledge but whenever I ask him if he’s having sex with other people, he says no.

I asked him why he had the condom there and he said it was because he puts it on to jerk off, which I partially believed because he had his lube in the bathroom. This morning when I woke up to shower to get ready for work, I noticed what looked like make up stain on the door frame (could have been anything honestly). I don’t know if I’m being dramatic and over thinking things because I like him and the idea of him because with another woman makes me sad, but I need outside opinions.

What do you ladies think? Do you think he’s being honest about not seeing other women or am I being paranoid?