Every time

Every time I try and plan a party with the people I want to come, they can’t make it, I tell them weeks beforehand and make sure they aren’t doing anything that day then the day arrives and all I get is:

“can’t make it”

I’m so unimportant that I don’t even get an “I’m” or an explanation. I don’t know why I even try. This happens with ever party, every year. It doesn’t matter if it’s my birthday or Christmas or just a party for fun. No one ever comes, they just cancel day of. No matter how many times I texted hey, is this day alright? Can you do this with us? Is this movie ok? Do you have a ride? What time should it be, what works?

It’s always just: fell asleep. oops forgot about it. I made plans for today.

UPDATE: and to top it all off, my mom uninvited half of my family because “they love you more than me” and “they may be nice but they’re not” and is trying to convince me DAY OF to have it Sunday, when my dad has work because I have to “respect my birth” even though for the past several years almost no one, not even her, has had a party on their actual birthdate...and somehow I’m selfish for wanting to see a movie with my sister and friends instead of spending a shit ton on a huge party. . .