Was this the longest Monday EVER or is it just me? My day started alright, but damn once 3 pm hit it’s like stress just overcame me. I have a 21 month old son (Easton) and a 2 month old son (Jax). My husband works a lot of hours so I’m able to stay home with the kids so 90% of the time it’s just me and my babies. All fun and games until they are both crying, both need diaper changes and both hungry all at the same time. The baby cries, the toddler whines or screams. Sometimes I feel like I’m literally going to lose it but I never do. I’ve battled PPD this time around and it’s sooo bad. I’ll be bawling crying in the middle of a diaper change or realize it’s 4pm and I haven’t eaten all day. I cried more than my newborn that first month. It makes me have feelings of jealousy towards my husband because he gets to leave the house alone and have 20 mins in the car to himself. I’m just tired, I’m stressed, I don’t know how to make babies magically stop crying, I haven’t figured out how to cope from the stress of having 2 under 2. Throw in a whole other slew of family issues, financial issues, small arguments turning into somebody sleeping on the couch. This season of life is hard for me right now, I’m struggling through motherhood right now and I just feel like crying my eyes out honestly.