I'm going to lose my shit...

My baby daddy is controlling and disrespectful or am crazy... we have been together on and off for about ten years and we have a 3 year old and a 30 year mortgage together. We are both servers in a restaurant industry and we were both fired in March because of coronavirus. My work reopened in mid may they told us if we didn't come back we would no longer have a job there. So I made the choice to go back cus in may he had not received a stimulus or unemployment so we need an income and one of us needed a job so I went back. He gave me shit for going back told me he didn't want me working many shifts(putting myself at risk and therefore our daughter at risk. He told me I couldn't go to the bar after work cus more risk. So out of respect and trying to prevent sickness I only work 3 days. And I never go out except to pick up groceries orders or to work or to take my daughter to a beach so early that no one is there. His job reopened in the beginning of July but only took back a few employees that had higher sonority then him. So he has been out of work this whole time and I've been paying everything but I'm only working 3 days. So now this past week his job rehires him. So he tells them he can work every single day. We don't really have child care so now that means I basically can never work anymore. He worked 6 days in Miami dade which has a much higher rate then the county I work in. And today is his birthday so he said he is gonna go to work then go out and drink with his friends. So why is it ok for him to work everyday and ok for him to go out but I have to be isolated because if I'm not I'm to blame if our daughter gets sick. I try to point this out to him and he just accused me of not having friends and to trying to ruin his birthday and telling. Me that everyday we go to work we are putting ourselves at risk so therefore it's ok for him to go out and party but I can't do shit... ever... he is like old what your problem is your just crazy. Our daughter just also got diagnosed with low white blood cell count which means she is more susceptible to virus and bacteria. So am just just being crazy that I'm upset or is he being disrespectful and controlling. I spent my 30th birthday home with just the family cus if coronavirus and it was my 30th and I had big plans but u know the rules apparently don't apply to him. Sorry just needed to vent.