I’ve had two miscarriages in the past and so far this pregnancy has been looking good. Numbers have been great, 1st ultrasounds at 6 weeks and 7 weeks looked great, but now I have to wait till 9 weeks to see what is happening 😭😭😭

I hate that I can’t shake this feeling that I’m going to go to my 9 week ultrasound and get bad news. I’m trying so hard to get these negative thoughts out of my head but I’m totally scared and I’ve tried to prepare myself for the worst so it may not feel like such a big blow when it happens. I know that’s terrible.

I’m also trying not to over analyze everything I’m feeling as a sign of things are good or bad, but that’s also super hard.

I have 6 more days to wait till this next ultrasound and I’m praying little baby is still kicking in there and I can leave with good news. I know nothing is guaranteed but I never felt like this with my 1st daughter. Having miscarriages scares the hell out of you for the next babies 😞

Just wanted to vent and get my feels out there as they are hard to talk about .