Erotic dreams

My husband and I have a good sex life. But before him (we have been together since we were 18) I was a virgin. The thing is I fooled around with a lot of boys lol not to sound like whore 😅 my long term ex before him ... everything was so exciting even without penetration. The foreplay was AMAZING. It was dangerous to since we always did this when our parents weren’t around, or we would go to this place on the beach... now it’s very hard to get my husband to do foreplay... I LOVE IT... I know he is a bit insecure but my god just one time doing it in a risky location and focusing on me would be awesome... I miss that.