Memories & Mistakes

6 months ago today I drove 4 hours from PA to Ohio to spend about 8 hours with a guy I’d been talking to for months.

I’d know this guy since high school- that’s almost 20 years. We were friends on Facebook for probably 10 of those years so when he messaged be out of the blue last July, it was no big deal. He’d done it before. This time something clicked though and we ended up talking, hanging out, hooking up for months. Stupid me caught feelings about 3 months in. He worked out of town a lot so the biggest problem we had was that he wanted me to come see him while he was away at work. Most of the time this was in another state. It took me months to work up the nerve to do it... for a while I figured he just wanted a booty call, but on February 29th I finally did it! I wanted to prove to him that my feelings were legit.

3 months ago today he changed his relationship status to “in a relationship”.... with some girl he’d been talking to for probably 6 weeks. Long story short I called him a piece of shit. 🤷🏻‍♀️ It’s been 3 months and I have not gotten a response to that. No explanation, no apology, no nothing. To say I was devastated was an understatement.

What makes it even worse is that 2 years earlier I had the same thing happen with another guy. Spent over a year on this dude who started dating another girl while hanging out with me. (And they are still together). Last year around the time I told this second guy the whole story about what had happened and he said to me “Oh I’d never do that, if I’m talking to you, I’m only talking to you.” 🙄

Not looking for pity. It’s taken me a long time but I realize it’s his loss, not mine. I unfriended him the day it happened, and blocked him shortly after that. It just struck me when I woke up this morning that it has been 6 months. Crazy to think what can change in 6 months.