Depression

Does anybody else seemed to be experiencing spurts of depression. I seem to be waking up and not really feeling like myself and I all i want is to cry and stay locked in my room basically. Im 10w2d and I have 10 days until my next ultrasound which is the check for chromonal issues and bloodwork. This is my first pregnancy and I've had alot of anxiety about my body being capable of doing such an important job. I started spotting around 6 weeks. I've never had any bright colored blood or tissue. Just once every few days I wipe and theres a light brown/yellowish discharge. I dont have any cramping. Once in a while I get uncomfortable and usually its just due to the way I'm sitting. Once I move I am comfortable again. But I can't seem to kick this mopey crummy feeling I have. Lately I just feel like an emotional bomb. Other then emotional issues and the occasional headache I don't really have many symptoms and it honestly is just making my anxiety spike. I can honestly say though that I "barely feel pregnant". I say it like that because there's moments i do like when my belly is showing a bit more that day. Im just so scared that all of a sudden something is gonna do wrong. I know that i shouldn't be anxious but ive wanted to be a mom for so long. And my husband has experienced 2 miscarriages in the past. He is just as excited but it took him till he saw the heartbeat at 8 weeks to actually get excited about it. He is equally as scared as I am still until my first trimester is over. I know I'm so close to the end. I just wish I could see my mini a little sooner to make sure everything is still going good.