Postpartum body image

Anyone else struggling? I L❤️VED being pregnant and my pregnant body. Had my son 8/10 and I'm just now comfortable looking at my stomach long enough to change clothes. But I hate showering and having to touch it. 😭 It's just this flatter, flabby thing that isn't beautiful the way it was when I was pregnant (in my eyes). And I had 2 stretch marks during pregnancy and since having my son my tummy on the bottom, is covered with those evil red stretch marks. The stretch marks don't bother me as much as just looking down and seeing my tummy back to the way it was before. Guess I'm venting and seeing if anyone else is struggling. It's tough.