Hi guys, I’m not sure why I am posting this but I guess I need to express how I feel. I haven’t been too certain of how or what I’ve been feeling for a while.

I am currently 24 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby boy. So far I’ve had a pretty textbook pregnancy with all of our favorite symptoms (sarcasm lol, I’ve puked a ton).

But throughout my entire pregnancy so far I sometimes get really sad over my very first pregnancy. September 26th 2019 will be my 1 year since I had my miscarriage, however I still cry about it sometimes.

The day of our gender reveal for our rainbow baby I broke down in tears twice that day, and it was so sad for me to think of my baby that I never got to know very much about.

Sometimes hitting new milestones in my current pregnancy can give me a twinge of sadness, because I never got to experience them with my first pregnancy.

Does anyone else feel this way?

Don’t get me wrong, I am so very excited for my rainbow baby, and I already love him so much. However I can’t help but think about what would have been...can anyone else relate?