I use to think I would 100% want at least 2 but now after my first, I am just so in love with him, I often think I don’t need another one! I didn’t have the happy excited pregnancy that I see a lot of people having. It was a tough time for me. I also tried going back to work when my baby was just 4 months old at a brand new job and let me tell you it was THE hardest thing I think I have ever done. I was crying all the time and really struggling at work. And unluckily/luckily covid happened and I was forced to stay home like most and got to really raise my baby! Just started working again (new job again) but now maybe Bc of the age of baby, it feels a lot easier balancing work and taking care of baby. Or now I realize why many people recommend waiting until the baby is a year old before returning to work if you’re lucky enough to have that option. Anywho, I can’t imagine struggling through all of that again. And it makes me sad to think I finally feel ok at a new job, I don’t want to give that up to have baby number 2. But I also don’t want to wait too long to have a second Bc id prefer the age gap not be bigger than a few years plus I’m no spring chicken and clock is ticking kind of thing. Any other mommas out there struggling with a similar situation? Husband keeps talking about a second... but I’m just not so sure 😬 I think because of the way our society is structured at no fault to my husband, I also just feel like I’m the one who’s made the most sacrifices and it will be me again to make them a second time.