Feels like a trap

My (ex) fiance and I split up nearly a month ago. I left him. Not because we didn't love each other, or because either of us cheated but rather because the trust and respect that are so important to a solid relationship had vanished and because we were fighting more then we were making love. I decided to break it off now while we still loved each other rather than trying to cling to something that clearly wasn't working until we despised each other. He's been begging and pushing me to take him back, but I told him we both have too much shit we need to work on as individuals right now to be successful as a couple and if we were meant to be we'd find our way back to each other one day. He asked if we could be friends because he doesn't want me totally out of his life and I agreed to try.

Well I woke up to a text from him asking if we could just "f*ck every once in a while because he doesn't want to f*ck with anyone else"

This is tempting, we NEVER had an issue with sex, it was f*cking fantastic from the first to the last. HOWEVER we started as f*ck buddies and it quickly escalated to a relationship 🤦 Also I replied and his answer 😭🔪🔪🔪

We'd JUST started trying to conceive a few months before we split. I want a baby more than ANYTHING and he knows it. It feels like a trap, I KNOW it's probably a trap and yet I'm still tempted 😭 HELP

@Emily and Casey I tried to talk him into couples counseling and he refused, he may want to keep me but not enough to see a "shrink" apparently.

The primary problems in our relationship have always stemmed from the facts that I'm very quiet and even natured and he's very loud and quick to anger and take offense. He's also bipolar and refused to medicate until AFTER I'd already left and then the started making appointments to get medicated but has yet to actually GET medicated. Over the past 6 months or so I've found myself becoming angry and snappish at the drop of a dime rather then remaining calm and trying to get him cooled off and that's not the person I want to be. So while neither of us wants it to end, for the time being at least it is for the best. That at least I'm absolutely confident about.