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Sitting here realizing I'm 24 with three kids and a husband that I could honestly be better off mentally and money wise. I have been regretting everything since I meet my husband besides my kids of course. I wouldn't trade them for anything. My husband does nothing for our kids be happens to make 40 dollars a week yes a week. We live with his brother and three kids. I left a couple months ago but of course my dumb ass comes back cause he said that he would do better and I didn't want the kids to be without their dad blah blah blah ha that lasted three days and I'm telling you he was the best daddy to then when he had them he stay with them the whole time took care of them and all by himself and that's all I wanted besides to be better to me and get a actually job and now he barely sees them doesn't do anything with them and I'm tired WHEN HE DOESN'T HAVE A JOB. I'm depressed to the point where I'm just here I'm alive but not living if that makes sense. I can't sleep at night I'm alone but I'm right beside him in bed