is this pandemic ever going to end?

this pandemic happened during the best years of my life and it’s really wearing me down because I feel as though I am afraid of even living my life and seeing the people I love. I have major anxiety and sometimes it makes me believe this will never end or i’m going to die - like there’s nothing in between. I know deep down its irrational and not true but I often feel helpless and break down into tears. i have the best boyfriend and i am afraid to even see him sometimes because I don’t know how cautious the people he’s around are. any advice