Feeling so hopeless 💔

I guess I just needed to feel like I could share this without hurting anybody close to me...

I’ve been actively trying to conceive now for 12 months and have had 2 early pregnancy loses (CP’s) in this time. Before we got married we also had 11 months without contraception and more of a ‘if it happens attitude’, and didn’t conceive then either.

Since my last loss, two of my closest friends have discovered that they are expecting their own babies, and as happy as I am for them my heart is completely broken 💔 I’m so happy for my friends, but anytime I speak to them it feels like my heart is being ripped out of my chest, especially when one of them consistently tells me how ‘awful’ it is to be pregnant.

I just never imagined it would take so long and be so painful to start our family, especially with us only being 28 & 29 years old.

Really feel like I need reminding that it won’t be like this forever 😔🥺