How to build a plan for me

Hi ladies, lately I’m struggling.

I don’t feel like myself anymore due to stress and hormones and college. I’m not as energetic as I was and I’ve gained over 40lbs in the past three years. Partially from hormonal birth control and partially from college and work and just neglecting my body.

I was never in sports in high school but I enjoyed gym class and doing my own workouts because of how much it would wake me up.

I’ve been trying on and off to workout but I just can’t get into it. My college semester really isn’t very difficult this year and I do have a lot of free time, but I just can not get into it.

I am technically healthy, but I’m just unable to enjoy hiking now that I’m so out of breath a few minutes in and now that my thighs chafe so much.

I’m not able to look in the mirror without completely obsessing over how I look. I never used to feel this way, and after years of feeling this way, I’m sick and tired of it. I want my body and my life back.

I really don’t know what to do. I don’t know where to start. I have a gym membership which is great, but I feel like I don’t have the motivation or I hate some of the exercises because now they feel so difficult for me to do.

How can I come up with a plan to exercise in a way that will make me want to? I do want to lose weight, but I want to create healthy habits that I can continue to do after I lose weight. I want to be healthy long-term not just until I reach my goal weight.

I could really use some advice on this! I want to feel like myself again :(