Anyone else just feeling down or just questioning the choices they’ve made so far?

No hate please but these past couple of days have kicked my butt. I feel like I can’t please my parents as I’m trying to help around the house but work 10-16 hour days and just can’t focus all my energy on one thing. One guy I was truly interested in turned out to be another dude I didn’t get to know, so I unadded him from social media and a bit sad. Sad that right before corona hit we were talking a lot then quarantine happened and it dropped off from there. Sad that I feel like I missed out on a couple months of my life. Was really hoping this year I would date again after being single from my toxic relationship for a year. Finally did some pampering the other day and the tech asked me if I was married or had a family and it made me realize what the fuck am I doing with my life. Started questioning all my choices like if I didn’t do this and get into this bad relationship, 2 years ago my outcome would’ve been different and I might’ve been here or there. Instead I had to take that time to focus on me and the one guy who was interested in me moved on during that time. Looked up my ex cause why not, that is a cherry on top of all this. Hes living his own life and I just feel once again so far behind everyone and just lost. Body dysmorphia is back and I’m trying hard to remind myself that a glow up is good, but it has to be done in a healthy manner and not every flaw we see in ourselves is true. Oh and I have a bit of a cold and my period has been off this month. All and all to realize that ya I might’ve taken time to myself to be single but I actually haven’t healed a lot so I should probably find a therapist. So ya that’s where I’m at. The past couple months we’re going good but with season change and the year almost ending, my butt is being kicked