Looking for a bit of help

Hey to whoever is reading this

I was just wondering if someone could help me I don’t really know how to word this so please bare with me and my bad English. For the past few months I guess I’ve been completely unsure about my emotions because I’m never happy but I’m not sad or depressed I just kind of sit there but still cut (bad habit I know) there are things that used to make me really depressed that now I just live with like it’s normal and there’s things I’ve lived with my whole life that are now making me upset.

I’m really unsure of what any of this means and I’m just wondering if anyone could shed a little light.

Thanks :)