Idk what to do

I’ve been married for about a year now, no social media bc my husband feels like we shouldn’t have it. More like maybe he’s weak and would get tempted idk why the hell I can’t have one if he supposably trusts me..

Anyways I have one main friend that doesn’t have kids and she likes to drink etc but we’ve been close friends since freshman yr of HS & we’re both in our early 20’s. Earlier I said ima hang out w/ her bc I need girl time , I feel like I’m going crazy being at home. I feel like this quarantine is putting an even bigger toll on everything ... but he said it’s either him or her like dude wtf?

I feel like my life is being controlled . At first he was okay w/ her hanging w/ us at our house and now all of a sudden no? When I was pregnant he would always have kickbacks at the house getting loud drinking w/ his friends and he didn’t give 2 flying F’s about me being in the house watching our LO! Not that I’m not pregnant he hates when I drink? Like dude I’m so close to wanting to get a divorce! He doesn’t even want to put effort in couples therapy & says I need it for myself like cmon . I just don’t know how to leave .. I have nothing really , nobody to really go too and talk about this .. no one I can fully trust ..

Forgot to mention my girl has been feeling the same way the other day as if my husband doesn’t like her around .. she called when he was at work and we had a long conversation.. like I feel bad bc she’s going through it w/ her relationship & I obviously am too like moments like this is what gets to me .. I wish I can be there for her as a friend should be and I need one rn beside my damn husband